Well this is just amazing. First I get grounded.. which really sucked.. and then when I get un-grounded, the computer breaks. My cousin took it in and they said the motherboard fried. We got a new motherboard Thursday and it said there was a power error. I'm not sure if the new motherboard worked in the first place but he (my cousin) thinks it is the computer. I have to use the library computer and I can't really upload things here because, well I won't. But it really sucks that I get on to check my devioations and it won't let me go past page three. GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR. I guess I'll live. Or maybe I will die NOT. Not my luck. Just kidding. But it still kindsa sucks.

Okay.. I am so smart.. I mean this is one of the smartest things I do. I get grounded. Normally I don't get grounded because I don't leave the house so the can't put me on house arrest, I don't get any phone calls except the occasional one from my dad so they can't take the, and I don't have much to do but my PSP and I have only had that since Christmas so, they don't have much room to do anything but put me in my room for the day.

Now here is the story. I was on the computer for about three hours talking to a certain someone who shall not be named (you know who you are) and was going through there gallery faving all their stuff commenting and such. Well Arie told me to get off and I didn't because I wasn't done talking or doing my stuff on his poems. I really didn't take much notice to his requests. Well he got irritated as I got disrespectful and decided that since I wouldn't get off he would take me off. I didn't like that and I thought he would get nosy so I tried to quickly delete my notes and messages.. he got suspicious afterward and said he might read them since I was didn't get them deleted before he logged me out and lectured me. Well that is about it.

Aren't I genius? I really need to stop getting in trouble.

My cousin AKA my house hold, found the journal as I intended him to. You see I had a plan and you'd have to read my first journal "I shouldn't be afraid" to understand. In other words Hoopman is the only one who is gonna read this and understand what I am saying. Anyway, I knew he was going to read it one way or another and I figured with the information it withheld he would go through my favorites and check to see what I was talking about. Today I took advantage of his absence and faved some photos that were not bad but they were not something you would see in public. That would either cause an indirect problem where I didn't do it myself but it was a second hand deal, or he would just tell me whatever and he couldn't do anything but lock me out of my account until I listened.

Now let's get to the point where I feel stupid. He found it (as I planned, aren't I smart?) and he seemed a little upset that I went about it the wrong way. He said he didn't care and couldn't say anything because he himself did it also. He prefers I stay out of the nudity category, due to my grandparents, and other than that I have free rein. Though he would rather have me do that than look at my "emo" stuff.

Well I was WAY wrong. Now I will feel awkward because I am an oblivious idiot, but I won't have to feel bad about going behind his back.

Now I feel terrible because I took advantage of his absence and tried to prove my point in a way that he would end up getting mad and I would be right. So you see I was wrong and now I have to deal with the fact that I passed up a ton of perfect art due to the safety of my own ass.

HOW GENIUS WAS THAT!

I should be able to look at art and comment on what I like on DA. I mean I should not be fearful of what I see. But I don't not look or fave half the stuff I think is good due to the fact that I might get looked at weird by my household. How stupid. I just passed up about 30 photos due to some sort of nudity or innocent but not child approved material. Like a girl maybe 15 in a t-shirt and underwear out under a tree. I didn't look at because I thought I would get yelled at because the underwear. WHO GIVES A FREAKIN CARE! I WEAR UNDERWEAR! I hate not being able to give my opinion due to ignorant and stubborn people..

*sigh* well I'm done now.........

My art is once again getting depressing, and I have had writers block for so long I am afraid that I am forgetting how to write. I am writing about lousy corny stupid stuff that people will either not understand or not care about.. well my rant is done. Problem unsolved.

SMILES! (I hope)